Today Jackson and I- in our constant attempt to find fun and active things to do while it’s SOOOO COLD out- went to Gleason’s Gymnastic School’s open gym for kids kindergarten and smaller. It was all the way in Eagan which is a trek for us since we are out west, but it was well worth the drive. Jackson had a fantastic time running around with all the other kiddos. I met some of my girlfriends and their kids there- so he had some familiar faces in the crowd. He especially liked when the instructor had the kids sit in a circle and stretch and dance to music. I adore watching him grow stronger and be able to do some of the things the “big” kids are doing!
Archive for January, 2009
I went to a digital scrap-booking party at my friend Katy’s house and I am now on to the FABULOUS concept of storing, organizing and “scrap-booking” all the trillions of photos I have of my kid. This particular scrapbooking software company is called Creative Memories. (www.creativememories.com)
At the party we had a little demonstration and a small explanation of all the tools available and then we got to sit down at a lap top and actually create a page! (We were told to bring jump drives of photos with us.)
The software was SO user friendly and there are so many great little things you can do with all the different albums and frames. And I am NOT a scrap-booker ladies. Really not. But since this eliminates the need for a scissors and glue I am starting to get into it. Hopefully I can get organized and make sure J’s baby books are up to date before this next little one comes! All part of my “nesting” I guess!
So, if you have read my blog in the last month or so- you will remember my entry about wanting this second baby to be a girl. I find out in a couple of weeks and I am so anxious to know- but yesterday something really struck me and I realized I truly will be so happy to have a boy as well. Someone asked Jackson if he wanted a little sister or a little brother. He paused and really thought about it for a minute, and then with a huge gleeful smile on his face he practically shouted “BROTHER!” How precious is that?!
I let you know when I know!
So I have belonged to Lifetime Fitness (well, it was Northwest, before Northwest was taken over by Lifetime) since early 2006. In that time the price of membership has just gone up up up. Granted in that time my husband and I got married and had Jackson and so we are on the family membership now and I can take J to the gym daycare. Don’t get me wrong- it’s a fabulous club- especially with the new renovations they have done recently. But as the price has gone up, the number of times I actually get to the gym a week has gone down! I used to go 4 to 5 times a week. Now I’m lucky if I get there 4 times a month! Sometimes I can’t get it out of my head that I am spending a LARGE sum of money per month just to get there a few times. It is SAD how little I go, I know. Recently I have decided, since my motivation has been slim to none in the work out department as of this second pregnancy, that I would figure out other ways to really use the gym.
I am happy to say that today, even though it was -10 degrees outside, Jackson and I went swimming! There is family swim from 11am-2pm on M,W,F and we even had a long, fun, hot shower in the unisex family changing room- then grabbed some lunch at the Cafe before we left! Jackson had a ton of fun, fell asleep on the way home, and had an extra long nap to recuperate from all the exercise.
This week has been so bitterly cold, I feel like we are locked in our house forced to do the same old thing. It was so refreshing to get out! I am going to try and do this at least once a week (especially now in the winter when there is so little he can do to burn some of that energy.) Hopefully my husband will come with and we can try it as a family on a Friday night.
Happy swimming! Hope you find something fun to do in this FREEZING weather.
My New Years Goal for 2009…
My favorite prayer is: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference.
All of my life I have had a hard time, as I am sure many people have, accepting the things I cannot change. I believe I possess the wisdom to know the difference but that doesn’t mean I always go straight to acceptance. In fact more often than not I find myself in denial.
I have had Rheumatoid Arthritis for the past 5 years of my life. I was diagnosed at the ripe old age of 22, and at a time when I was the most physically fit I could have possibly been. I was a dancer, ran 3 miles a day, did kickboxing classes, yoga classes and pilates. I woke-up very early one morning (about 3:30am) unable to sleep because of the pain in my hands. I couldn’t close them into fists and it felt like my hands were on fire from all of the numbness, tingling, and shooting pains. My wrists and hands were swollen and I couldn’t get them to feel normal or “work” correctly until about 1:30 in the afternoon. In denial, I let this go on for about three weeks. I had no idea what was happening to me but I determined it couldn’t be permanent.I was such a healthy person. This couldn’t happen to me.
The truly sad thing is I am going to be 28 this coming summer and I find that I still struggle with the acceptance of this condition almost every single day of my life. I still hold on to the idea that it could “go away.” That maybe a pregancy can put me into a remission and keep me in a medicine free remission for years. That maybe I’ve been misdiagnosed and when I find out what I really have, there will be a cure. I have spent too much time and too many tears on this disease. It makes me angry and with anger I only feel worse and worse.
I keep thinking, “I HATE this.” I hate that this has happend to me. It isn’t fair. It effects my relationship with my husband, it spurs jealousy of those that don’t have to worry about whether or not they will need to take a medication while they are pregnant and possibly risk side effects for thier child. It makes me sad to think I can not dance like I used to and it’s not because I am “too old” or I have “abused” my body too much. It makes me worried that the medications I do take will age me; cause cancer, change the way I look. I think, “I’m not supposed to look that way. I’m too young. If only I didn’t have to be on medication for the rest of my life I wouldn’t have this excess stomach fat, these extra lines on my face, hair loss.”
I blame my disease for a lot of things. And it makes me feel ugly inside to think I am under a constant battle. That I cannot accept the things I cannot change. My new years resolution is to try and find acceptance this year. I need to accept my R.A. I need to take it as a part of me. That it will change things about me- and it’s still me. And it’s okay to have this obstacle in my life. That I will try and use it for good. To make me a stronger person. It is not “fair.” But there are a lot of things that are not “fair.” And I have so many blessings to be thankful for- I need to concentrate on that. Rhuematoid Arthritis has been handed to me, and finally five years later am trying to find my serenity.
Hope you accomplish your goal this year.
I went to shopmama today and saw that Amy Taylor very recently passed away. She was one of our inspiring moms that suffered from breast cancer. I was so touched by her story the first time I saw it posted on our site and I just read it again- all the while in tears. I have never met her but I know she was an amazing woman. I am so sorry for such a great loss and I am praying for her friends and family- especially those beautiful children who no longer have their mommy.